Happy Sadness

I cry tears of joy
You try so hard
To find the words of the past.
And when you do,
You are so sad.
You know the words.
You know your losing them.
I see your face
Happy and sad.
You sing and remember
You wipe the tears away
Before they even form.
It hurts you so much,
What once made you happy
Now makes you sad.

Grampy, I Miss You

Sadness rips at me,
Seeing you this way.
Gampy, I know you,
I know that you are there.
Unseen and unsure
Lost in yourself.
Grampy dear Grampy
I want you back.
I can see how you struggle
With the simplest of tasks
But you've yet to give up,
You never will, I know.
Yesterday we played with Duplos.
When before we did thousand piece puzzles.
It hurts me to see you.
I love you so.
Your laughter and smiles still shine bright.
You know everything, You just don't know where.
I want to find you, Grampy.
To have you back forever.
The smile when you put two pieces together,
It made my day.
But at the same time
It crushed my heart.
I miss you so much Grampy
Stay here for me.